The Future

I can totally picture it.
An older me, with a cat, and a cozy house.
Sitting on my porch swing watching the sun set or working in the vegetable garden that I’d like to have one day.
Surrounded by peacefulness.
Maybe that’s my destiny.
To be alone….er, single rather. Because being alone is something entirely different.  
Since my divorce 3 years ago, I’ve rediscovered who I am.  
And maybe I am too much for one man to handle. Maybe I will always be intimidating, or too strong, or too stubborn, or too something.
But those are all things about myself that I have no desire to change. Those are some of the best parts of who I am!
Maybe I am destined to be single.
Maybe I can truly be happy and peaceful with a life full of things that I love.

Just So You Know

Just so you know, I will never be able to give you my heart.
I won't hug you, or cuddle with you. I'll never look up at you with
adoring eyes. If I feel that I start to like you too much I'm gonna
back off.
I will go out with you, and laugh, and smile. I'll conversate, but
only on superficial topics. But I will never fully show you who I am.
My heart is still wounded. It is still healing.
And mostly, it still belongs to someone else.